the alternative to real world, is just time for me and a fantasy.

I need to explain something to everyone.

My obsession with this musician.

Most people have no idea who IAMX is. And that's very well, because I will enjoy continuing to see him play at T.T.'s, singing and gyrating mere feet from me. IAMX is the stage name for Chris Corner, the lead singer for Sneaker Pimps, known for little other than "Six Underground," the trippy downtempo radio ballad from the 90s.

This is possibly the most androgynous man on the face of the planet. I mean, this guy puts Brian Molko to shame. He wears insane makeup, rarely has a shirt on, and has at least 5 top hats covered in glitter. All of his songs are synth-driven, dark electro songs about sex, drugs, bisexuality, and gender identity. He is decadent, extravagant, a fusion of sound and images. In short, if I were a man, and had any musical talent, I would be him.

If you're interested in what a stylish drunk with a political bent and a penchant for the dramatic sounds like, check out his page on Last.fm: IAMX.

Good. Now you all get it.

yeah, I'm getting married, you jerks.

Okay, so this has basically been the strangest/oddly hardest thing I've ever done.

The last thing anyone thought I would do. Aside from spawn. No worries, folks. My uterus has no plans of serving any purpose in the near future.

All I seem to get is faux excitement from most people. Which is fine. Believe me, when I start talking about centerpieces, I want your eyes to glaze over. Please, everyone, make sure I'm not one of those women. I still will never be able to care about the difference between a princess or an asscher-cut diamond. I could give two shits about whether ivory or champagne is the right color for a veil.

To anyone that was genuinely hurt or bothered by the fact you found out on Facebook - I'm sorry, I really am, but I wasn't going to call everyone in my phone and gush about my impending nuptials. I know I should have contacted some of you, but I really don't know how to handle all this stuff and I don't want this to be the focus of my personality for the next 6 months. It's hard enough dealing with my mother's reluctance. Yes, I am young. No one is more aware of this fact than I am. But I met someone that I know I want to hang out with forever. What's the point of waiting when I'm more sure about this than I've ever been about everything in my life?

Okay, /wedding-related rant. Upward and onward to bigger things.

HAVE YOU HEARD THE NEW JUNIOR BOYS? Um, crap. It's awesome. They're playing at the middle east in may, so I finally found some use for my Ticketmaster giftcards. If you're not familiar, let this blow your mind:




I just found out IAMX is releasing a new album in may as well. My heart bursts.

reflections on election.

So. This week was monumental, in so many ways. I can't even begin to express my joy in Sen. Obama's success, but I don't feel I need to, because pretty much everyone else I know feels the same way. Instead, I'm going to move on to what I'm NOT happy about. Despite all the success of progressives in this election, some things are very, very wrong.

Such as PROPOSITION 8.

I am truly blessed to live in a state where gay, lesbian and bisexual people are given the RIGHT to marry the persons that they love. It is still so disappointing to me that the rest of the country refuses to follow in the footsteps of Massachusetts. Apparently, we are so full of horrible homosexual heathens that can marry, sin is so rampant, that our state is in shambles - forced gay weddings, floods and fires, infanticide left and right. Because we Massholes have done such a disservice to traditional marriage, we actually have the LOWEST DIVORCE RATE IN THE COUNTRY. Obviously, shotgun weddings between 18-year-olds are so sacred and likely to succeed.

Aside from the sarcasm, it makes me sick to think that anyone feels they can take rights away from others. How would you feel if someone told you that you can't be with the person you love? How would you feel if you were not allowed to adopt a child because of something you can't control? The argument that people "choose" to be gay is bullshit, as well. Why would anyone choose to be ridiculed, mocked, devalued, made the butt of jokes and the subject of hate crimes?

Why the hell is it anyone's BUSINESS? How does it affect anyone but the two consenting adults? I am sick and tired of religion being motivation. most of all, I am sick of the LDS church. They were responsible for the failure of the ERA, and they're responsible for the passage of Proposition 8. I am sorry that people actually think love of God equates to hatred of diversity.

On a lighter note, damn am I happy that Amendment 48 in Colorado failed. I don't really find it appropriate to be persecuting women for miscarriages. The government needs to back the hell off my uterus.